Tuesday, 5 June 2018

Tomorrow brings another day....

Life goes on.....it feels wrong, but it’s the way it is, isn’t it. As we all know, we just have to plod on. It does feel like trudging through treacle though. And it’s exhausting.

Today was my first day back at work. Hochanda have been brilliant. They have been so supportive, and everyone was bloody lovely when I went in today. Lots of hugs, more tears...how many tears can a body produce for goodness sake.  Loads it would seem. I’m not done yet either....got plenty more where they came from. Anyway, I was prepping as tomorrow I’m back on air. Only for my LLL shows, and I do have the amazing Graphic 45, so it’s a nice way to get back to doing what I do. You’ll have to bear with me though, my prep was rather lacking, and I haven’t a clue what I’m going to demo tomorrow! It’ll be right. It’s Graphic 45, even if I just look through the paper for an hour I'll be happy (I promise I won’t do that....maybe just for 45 mins!).

I am also selling some of my finished samples, they have been framed and set up by my wonderful friend Jenny. I’m going back to my roots, up in Hassy. I used to sell my crafty things here many moons ago, when me and my sister used to do the craft fairs. I thought it would be a lovely idea to go back, and support their wonderful craft event.  I definitely recommend a visit. They have always had some really good artists and crafters, it was always the place I’d buy my Father’s Day pressies. For those interested, the Arts and Crafts festival will run from tomorrow until Saturday, and will be held at Manchester Road Methodist Church
Haslingden,
Rossendale
Lancashire
BB4 5SL





I must say thank you again for all your messages. The support has been incredible, I’ve been really moved by all your words.

Thank you.

45 comments:

spencer Hobson tv said...

You are loved very much by people who have never met you because you bring so much light and sparkle into our life's. I'm still stuck in bloody hospital but have it on my phone of course xxxxxx love to you

Sammywocko said...

So sorry Leonie and nothing anyone can say or will say can make things better. You are an incredible person and you will find your own way. I lost my dad in March 2 weeks after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and it’s only now I’m feeling the pain
Sending you loads of love and all the hugs in the world xxxx

Wendy Whiteley Taylor said...

You come into our lives most days. Your love and passion for crafts is infectious but most of all you have the ability to show so much love and kindness. Although we have never met. Your loss and sadness has touched many.
I wish you strength and peace through the dark times and light and hope for the future.

David Kirk said...

One day at a time, our Leonie! No one will expect much of you tomorrow. Just happy to have you back. 🤗🤗🤗🤗xxxxxxx

FantasticMrFox said...

Sorry for your loss Leonie,
When people close to us are lost to us suddenly we find it hard to fill the void that they left. But think how empty our lives would be without the fun and laughter, tears and experiences shared with a loved one now departed. How empty their lives would be without a loved one to share with . Fill the void with memories of happy times shared. Massive hugs from me n Alison.

Unknown said...

God bless, keep your chin up we are all thinking of you,be great to see you back on air and soo proud of you. Crafty hugs x

Maria said...

There are no words. If I can do anything to help just you holla. Thinking of you and of course your mum. Xx

Anonymous said...

Sending you so much love Leonie ...
I am so sorry for your loss.
I am so incredibly proud of you and nobody will expect a lot from you tomorrow.
We will enjoy having you back, I have missed you incredibly.

You have been a constant for me for nearly 3 years ... your amazing!
I hope you receive my card c/o Hochanda.

Lots of love ... Victoria xx

Dawn Tylee said...

Little steps Leonie xxx

Croms' Cubby Hole said...

baby steps Leonie. There is not one of us that doesn't understand what you're going through on one level or another. Just take one day at a time and if you have to weep on air - so be it. You will not be judged by the public to be any less the professional that you are. Your sparkle will shine through. The hurt will lessen bit by bit and the wonderful memories will take over. Just be kind to yourself and your family and don't beat yourself up over the odd tear. Love and hugs Helen xoxoxoxo

Jayne Webster-blyth said...

Dear Leoni. Just take small baby steps. Dont do too much and rest spiritually and physically. Missed seeing your smiling face and your infectious giggle. Love and hugs. Xxxxxx

Angie Elder said...

Your sad loss has touched the hearts of so many, Leonie, there is so much love for you and your family, in our own way we are trying to give back just a tiny bit of what you give out everyday. Your sister was one very lucky lady to have you by her side and you will carry her in your heart for always. We are all here for you, tomorrow will be fine, just take your time, remember to breathe. Marianne will be with you in spirit, proud of your strength and bravery, as we all are. Much love and gentle hugs leonie x x x

Di said...

Just be kind to yourself and don't expect too much, please - we won't. Your show will be wonderful, no matter what you do or how you do it. Everyone watching is on your side, living every difficult moment with you. I hope it gives you some pleasure, at least, and helps one more day pass a little faster. As everyone else has said and as you know - because it's all there is... one step at a time. Lots of love.

Rosina Farrance said...

So sorry for your loss Leonie, life is so hard at times. Loose yourself in your crafts and those lovely dogs. You will be fine tomorrow. Love and hugs to you and your family💕💕💕

Sally Cain said...

You are a lovely, inspirational lady and I love watching you on Hochanda. Everyone is sending you all the support in the world and I hope that step by step things get easier and more manageable for you as you learn to live with the loss you have experienced. Sending lots of love and hugs to you.

CraftyMamma said...

I don't know if you will get my previous message that isn't showing?
Be brave do what you do best and thank you for all your knowledge and skills that have helped me through some awful times!
My crafting journey as been inspired by you on so many occasions big hugs Anne x

Gillyflower said...

Bless you Leonie - there just aren't any words good enough to really help you at the moment. However, so very many people out here love and support you and really it will be baby steps which will get you through this time. Just take one day at a time. Sending supportive love and hugs, Gilly xx

Jane said...

Oh Leonie! Just be brave and craft like you've never crafted before!
Life does go on and you may not feel like it but you must! And you need to keep the fun alive! Think of the happiest of times with your sister and let the joy you shared wash over your and keep you in a happy place!
Much love and hugs! Xxxx

Carol said...

You have the love and support of thousands sweet girl. Just do your best. We will understand the rest! Love you Carol x

Unknown said...

There are no words...so sending love and hugs xxx

Bez G said...

Memories will linger on when footsteps in the sand have washed away - much love and hugs Leonie xxxx

lesley lawton said...

You will be fine on tv your creativity will help you through xx. I lost my sister last year and I know the pain you are feeling but we somehow carry on knowing we love them and they loved us and that will never change take it one day at a time lovely Leonie much love xxxx

Julie Wilson said...

You are much loved and always bring a smile to my face. Lots of hugs xxx

Tracy Welham said...

One breath, one step, one day at time, it's all you can do. Creative Blessings, Tracy x

Lucinda said...

Watching the show now, lovely to see you back and well done! Glad you're getting the support at work, as it should be. Just do what you can do, nobody can do more or ask more. I have shed tears for you and your family this last couple of weeks, nothing can change things but I hope you can all feel the love and affection holding you as you make your way through this horrible time.

Anonymous said...

So sorry for your loss. I didn't find out till today and you are back on with LLL. You will get through it. Remembering the good times does help to keep you motivated , the memories bring tears at first but later they will bring smiles too. xxx

Sarah Gray said...

Oh my....I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine how you and your family have been feeling. All I can say is that you were amazing on Hochanda today and continue to be an inspiration and joy to watch. Love and hugs to you xx

Deborah Whatford said...

So glad you're back. Must've been the longest hour ever. You did so well, as usual. You're an inspiration to me. Love you loads xxx

Hazel Parr said...

I just wanted to let you know I know exactly what you're going through. I lost my sister in a farming accident many moons ago. 26 years ago in fact. You probably saw it on the north west news. She too left behind a child. Her daughter Rachel became my world and I ended up feeling like her Mum. It's very hard right now for you. What got me through was talking to my animals. Pigs are amazing listeners. It won't be easy to carry on. Everything feels wrong. You'll forget about her being gone at times then feel incredibly guilty for forgetting, or for smiling laughing etc. You have to think what she would want and give yourself sbig kick up the bum. If you ever need to talk ti someone who knows please contact me on cardmarvels@gmail.com
Love n hugs
Hazel xxx

Eyeful said...

You will cry, laugh, feel pain and loads more emotions cherub just remember she'll always be with you. xxxx

Karen said...

One foot in front of the other, just be kind to yourself and know you'll get to that place where you are doing stuff automatically. Wishing you love and laughter always xx

Caroline said...

It's good to see you back Leonie. I always love your "off the cuff" style and your lovely bubbly personality. Life can be very cruel at times and I have found my way of getting through the worst is by crafting. A lot of grieving can come out in creativity and it has helped me through some very difficult times. Be kind to yourself and accept help when you need it x

Linda said...

Be kind to yourself Leone, you have been an inspiration for many, we are all thinking of you, sending hugs. x

HelenS said...

Welcome back to the fold Leonie. I've missed you and your lovely bubbly self. Sending hugs and love. Your tag books today will make lovely photo albums of your sister, small enough to go in your bag. Take care xx

Dawn Sirdefield said...

Dear Leonie, I cannot begin to imagine what you have been through these past few weeks but I am sure you will get through your shows with dignity and lots of fun. Tears are not a bad thing - bettee to let the pain out than to bottle it up. Do what you do best and I am sure your Sister will be with you all the way. Sending you the biggest of hugs sweetheart. Xxxx

Gayle said...

So sorry for your loss Leonie. You did so well on LLL. It must have been so hard for you. Do take care of yourself and know that we are all thinking of you. Gayle x

Littlelamb said...

Thinking of you Leonie. I had to miss the shows today but will try and watch on Catchup. Love your shows.

julie_woolston said...

Leonie you did amazing today, love the shows, hope you sell out of your amazing samples, take care hunny, sending big hugs Julie xxxxx

carol edwards said...

You did well today Leonie, so well. Such an awful time for you and your family. God bless you all. Hugs Carol xxx

joy steels said...

Was great seeing you back today felt for you know how hard it is. Was so sad to here about your sister grieve takes times there is no time limit we are all here with you cyber hugs take it day at time pain never goes but gets easier to think and talk about the good time and memories lots love xxx

Sue Ralph said...

As you say Leonie, life goes on but give yourself time to grieve. Love that you are going back to where you and your sister shared time together selling art. Take care of yourself. xx

StephC said...

It's such a tough time for you and the family at the moment but as you say, life goes on ~ whether we like it or not. So many of us can understand what you're going through as we've been there. Remember this though ~ your sparkling personality shines no matter what and you have loads of us who follow you fondly and we'll be there holding your hand through this although most of us have never met you. Stay strong, take time to grieve, cry when you need to and be kind to yourself. Take care xx

Lanie DuRose said...

I can't pretend to know what you've been through, what you're still going through. What I can say is that even though we have never met, you have been in my thoughts and I've missed you on my t.v. Only you can decide when it's the right time to start doing things again, but try to remember that there are thousands of people all over the UK and beyond that are sending their love and support to help you cope with the curve ball life has sent your way. Take care of you hun xx

Denise Rand said...

I watched you LLL shows, you did so well. I felt for you when you said you had hidden in your boyfriends shoe cupboard. You may have hidden for a while but you had the courage to come out and get in with it. And that's all you can do, one step at a time and one day it won't hurt quite so much. Nothing any of us can say will make you feel any better but all of us love you and wish you well.xxx

Gweddus said...

get your tissues out if you watch this...it is beautiful and might help you
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FysnCm00ByY